Hi friends! This post was originally published in April 2015 on my former blog How I Sustain. I’m adding it here because it’s such an important and relevant post and subject still today. It’s about loving yourself, starting with the INSIDE. Curious? Read more. Enjoy!
I love every opportunity I get to improve myself and my favorite self-improvement moments tend to involve actively working through my own insecurities. It’s hard work, but the payoff is absolutely worth it.
When I first discovered Project Life and pocket scrapbooking in 2012, it didn’t take long for me to notice that many of my favorite layouts by my favorite designers included pictures of themselves (selfies). I remember simultaneously admiring them and thinking “That’s amazing. I could never do that”.
I thought about it. A lot.
Truly, more than I care to admit.
There were so many moments, so many favorite outfits, and so many favorite memories that I wanted to capture of myself – and I didn’t. And the reason I didn’t capture them was because I was self-conscious about how other people would perceive me.
My inner critic looked at selfies as self-indulgent, selfish, and grossly unnecessary. It hated the angles that I used and the way things translated onto camera. It hated how imperfect or grainy or strangely lit the photos were. It hated the fact that I took a picture. It hated the entire thing.
I think most people know at least one person that sees self-portraits as something negative. And as much as I love my friends and family, the selfie trend hasn’t exactly caught on in my social circles. So when I want to take a picture of myself, I know what they’re thinking. And that’s why, for a long time, I didn’t take them. Even when I was alone, I carried that fear and judgement with me.
But as I looked through my own albums, and admired pictures of my favorite coffee shop, my best friends, my husband, my dogs, my garden, and my family – it was obvious that there was only one thing missing from my album: me.
The more I thought about it, the more I realized how important it was for me to be in my own albums. And I realized that I really like selfies. And that I didn’t care what other people thought. And, five years from now, I know that my future self I would want to see me in the album too.
Everyone, I’m telling you now, just being connected to this group of talented memory keepers and designers for this FREE project is such an outstanding opportunity. And it’s inspired me to push myself. And I’m in love with what I’m creating for this project.
After literally YEARS of debate, I finally decided to take the plunge and purchase Photoshop. It’s been 2 days and after a few quick tutorials, I’m completely in love with this program. I still feel very strongly that it’s not necessary to make beautiful scrapbooks, but in terms of what I want to do with design, it’s a necessity. And I’m very VERY happy with my work already (if you don’t have photoshop, but want to make a digital album, check out this post).
But let me add this: the layouts, the photographs, the prompts, the class – it’s all part of this wonderfully inspired moment I’m having right now. And it’s in part because I’m working with, and connected to, a lot of talented ladies that have helped me reign in my style and, unknown to them, absolutely pushed me to be better at what I love. And I’m happy to be where I am.
So here are my layouts. For more on the story behind these photos, and to create your own, check out all of our posts, now re-blogged at Little Paper Projects.
Happy snapping, friends!